Vestigial Emotions.

Before i start writing what i wanted to say, i just wanted to explain something that i have read in Biology.


I studied Biology till graduation, our syllabus covered a part of human evolution, where i remember we studied about "Vestigial Organ" (the organ that's present in the human body but, its of no use), these organs were functional in our ancestors, but eventually they became useless because we reduces its use, so they are present in the body but they don't have any function, example "Appendix".
Well, i explained vestigial organ, because, off late i have found that my emotions have also become vestigial, I feel sad, i feel the pain in my heart, when i loose something or someone, i want to express by love for my family and friend (only one friend), i do care for everybody, i am responsible, i do feel pity. But i can't express.
My sister who recently got married and currently lives in Kolkata, came to live with us for 15 days, i really had good time with her, we shopped, we exchanged gifts, we had so much to talk, we planned our future tours. we spoke about new jewelry, we spoke about starting a business, etc. etc. I was happy, and i wanted to say her that i missed her while she was away.
Today she went back to her in-laws house, at the station we hugged, mom and she had tears in their eyes, i too wanted to cry, my heart suddenly became heavy and i was afraid to look at her, i was not talking, i felt as if i lost my speech, my head was aching, and i just wanted the train to move off. Though there were so many psychological changes happening in me, i was so normal, my eyes were dry, not even a single drop of tear fell from them. 
I explained about vestigial, because somehow i feel , my emotions have become vestigial, though they are present,  they don't work.

She aborted a male child for her daughter.

Satyemev jayete! first episode, huge response.....I am glad that we have social reformers like Amir Khan, who dreams for a better India, a civilized society.
female foeticide, really a burning topic....
I wish, he met my mother once before telecasting this episode.


I was the first child of my mother, when i was 3 years old, i suffered from nephritic syndrome( malfunctioning of the kidneys). Doctors gave only 60% chances of survival, i had to get hospitalized along with me my mother was also staying in the hospital. while i was undergoing treatment, she realized, she was pregnant for the second time, then she had two options, 
let me struggle hard for my survival and she take care of  herself for the second issue.
                                                                  or
Forgetting her pregnancy,  putting all her efforts to take care of the baby, with whom she had already spent three years of her life.


She was in a dilemma......."what if the second issue was a boy".


Finally she took her decision, for which she never regrets.....She got the child aborted and found it to be a boy . My grand mother could not forgive my mom for what she did until she was alive, she always reminded mom of the sin she did.


we are a nuclear family, and hardly spent time with grand mother, once when she came to live with us for a very long time, she told me what my mother did to bring me back to life.It was my 25th year of existence on earth. I wanted to know what made her abort a male child for me? her response was.......


" You were in my life for three years, you were my first child, you were the result of my prayers, i started loving you more than any thing else in the world, i wont deny the fact that i loved you more than your father, the thought of loosing you, was killing me, so i took this decision. I agree, that abortion was a sin, but i don't regret, because i did't see the one who was growing inside me,so my love for him was not existing. I could have brought him to the world, but i had to loose you".


Today what ever i am is the result of  my mothers sacrifice.....i owe her my life.

Evaluate the value of (R) factor in your profile, Enjoy Face booking.

Why do i have to have a face book profile?


 Like i have heard from many young guys, in their early twenties, its a  "status symbol". I have seen people updating status about what they are about to do, what they are doing, whats hapenning in their life, bla bla bla.......as if people are eager to know about their life.
Every day i get at least two friend request, thank god its only  one or two now, few years ago, it use to be in bulk, 99% of them were people who were complete strangers to me, not even a mutual friend we shared. I have derived an equation out of my experience as a profile holder on Facebook, it goes like this:


1.Number of friend request (R) is INVERSELY  proportional to the profile holders age (A).
2. .Number of friend request(R) is DIRECTLY proportional to the profile picture (P). Let me give values to the pictures on facebook, let me number them in 1-4.
(a). Exceptional good looking (1)
(b).Good looking(2)
(c).Average looks(3)
(d).Not good looking (4)


 (Exceptional in few cases if    the profile picture is of some celebrity, we can ignore those)


                                               R=1/A
                                               R=P
 Finally the equation goes like this:  
                                             R=P/A


The lower value of the variable (p) the more number of friend request one gets. The higher value of (A), the lesser is the value of (R), which means less friend request.
The first variable i.e (A) in my profile is increasing with every passing year, the variable ((P) is in my control it depends on how much i pamper my self and spent more time in beauty parlors.


Readers can suggest me any new variables that can be considered in this equation.Evaluate the value of (R) factor in your profile, Enjoy Face booking.

"National Science day"

"National Science day", thank God, Raman effect was discovered on the 28th of feburary, and not on the 29th, else, we would have been celebrating this day, after every four years. Schools, colleges and Universities celebrates this day, remembers the great Indian Scientists.
For me, 28th february reminds me of the day, when i was a Student of Masters of Science at Andhra University, like every University, we too had some seminars and debate at the Ambedkar theater inside the University campus. From our department, it was me and swathi, who attended the gathering on behalf of the students along with us Lavanya (research Scholar), was also there. 
The hall was packed up with students, Research Scholars, Professors and Scientists, from various streams of pure and applied  Science. Who ever spoke, holding the loud speaker, leaning on the podium, that day, had one thing in common, they all spoke about, India's contribution, in the field of Inventions and Discoveries. It makes us feel proud to know how many great brains were from our country, but then most of the researches are done in United States of America. Indian Scientists become residents of the United states and complete their research there.Many people blame them, but i don't.
Swathi spoke , in front of the gathering, i support her for what she said that day. 
"There is nothing wrong in working for a foreign country, at least you get paid for your great contribution for the society and mankind. You know even if you are busy with your research, cut off from the whole world, the stipen will not let your family starve.  Go to which ever country pays you, show the world how intelligent Indians are, get the name and fame for every one in your country, including your family, and come back, once you are done living your dreams as a Scientist".
Great Thought Swathi!

Mamta Banerjee should apologies

"Mother of two children, separated, living alone, goes to bar, boozes", all these are signs of a characterless women, what if a i replace the word : MOTHER"  and put the word "FATHER", then he is considered responsible? 
I am sorry to comment on Mamta Banerjee's Party, when she came to power every one thought the time has come for change in West Bengal, she did do a lot for the state, no doubt on that, but i am ashamed for what her party men had to say for a women who was raped when a women is the Chief Minister of the State. Being a women she should first support a women and her emotions. 
How does it matter if a women chooses a particular life style, just because she is separated, goes to the bar, she is some one who would like to get raped? The talk show on NDTV 24/7 pointed out this issue,  if  a prostitute denies to have sex, doing so without her consent is rape.
 State like West Bengal, where women are given liberty, statement like "characterless" that too from the party of a women chief minister? i would say Mamta Banerjee should apologies.

Simhachalam

When I think of any holy place in India, only thing that i think about is mis management of the temple administration. Being a Hindu i am scared to visit temples, because of the kind of business that they run, i would rather sit at home and pray in front of the various idols that i have in my pooja room. Two years back i have been to PURI with my mother, it was first time for me, and the kind of business that the pandas run, was "no word in dictonary".  


I know any body can visit any temple, we are not charged for darshan, we will not get any special blessings from  God if we offer more, Its just that how much we believe in his existence. 


One such holy place that i have been visiting is Simhachalam. Simhachalam is situated on the top of the hills in Vizag district. I am proud to say that, the temple administration was the best, when i compare to other temples that i have visited. We have free entry, every one gets 5-10 seconds of darshan, there was a minister who had his body guards along with him who were in the queue along with others for the darshan. Here every one is treated equally. After the darshan every one gets free lunch tickets. Though i was getting late for office i wanted to experience the meals at a holy place, i was amazed to see people from every class  sitting down and having the meals with great respect for the food. No one was wasting a single grain, i wanted to peep into the kitchen to see how hygienic it was, i found it better than any road side hotel. No one here was treated  specially, every one in front of the Simhachalam administration was human, who deserved respect, and they got it here.


I am sure God really lives here.

Hippocratic society

"Don't do this, Don't do that" i am fed up of this Hippocratic society that i live in.
 Why do girls always have to be in the good books? i have always been in the so called good books of the Indian society, i had limited friends as a school girl, i studied in a women's college, i did Masters which i am proud of, but opted for a subject that was available in my home town, now, i am working,but still my parents keep a tab on, where i am going, how much time i will stay out of home, when i will come back, as parents i know they are worried about me, which is a valid, but i hate when they say "what if some one sees you outside so late in the night"?
Are my parents really answerable to all those people outside? do they feed me when i am hungry? did they buy me clothes in any of the festivals? did they compromise in any thing when it came to my admission fees? so why do they become so important when it comes to my personal life?