From the last few days i am getting compliments from my office colleagues, and on weekends i get compliments from family and friends when i actually get to socialize. The compliments are for various reasons: parents like the food i cook, sister like the mehendi that i draw on her palm, boss pats me for my work, i am asked to brainstorm for a problem at office, juniors come to me for work related queries, Friends take me for the wedding shopping, my paintings are appreciated by all my friends and i have many fans for my poems in the office. Now-a-days i am working on Nail paintings also, girls at office appreciates me for the paintings that i do on nails.
Now the question is where was this Arpita till now? until i was in school, i was engaged in various activities like completing homework, playing, going for music classes, then practicing music at home, what not? my B.Sc was not less than that of a school. M.Sc was the time when i was really exposed to the external world, full of competition, friends, tension for the future, etc.etc. I got lot of time during these two years to discover my self, i did part-time job, and end of the day i slept like a dead body. This was the bad phase of my life, when someone whom i gave very much importance, made me feel that i was worthless, and i started doing things to impress him, forgetting what i want. This continued for four years .
Today when i get compliments like: "U sing well"," Congrats for getting superstar", "waw kya mehndi lagayi hai", "didi aaj sabji acchi bani hai","good job Arpita", "You do paintings also", "Your poem was nice" etc.etc. I was such a fool to mould myself for someone who never saw all these qualities in me, instead of that he made me feel i am good for nothing. Four years down the lane i discovered my self with so many qualities, which i never knew, people around made me feel this way.Today i proudly believe that i have so many qualities that i never knew. This was possible only after he went away from my life, but it left a permanent scar that would never vanish.
2 comments:
Good and happy for you that you are discovering yourself. Previously also these many talents were there in you arpitha but something that you didnt have was time to bring those talents out,i know when you are in a relationship all you do is dedicate time for your partner so much that you tend to forget about u r own self,you know this happens to me as well.
At last time has come when you are dedicating more time to enhance all your inherent talents.By reading the last line of your write up i know that you still miss him,this is what happens with people like you and me :)
how good it would be if a person whom you love so much is there along with you when you are on your way to success to say i am there with you and i will be there for you or on the summit of success patting your back for what you have achieved.
nice write up
chaits
yeahh...so true....now u r single..and have all the time for urself....our priorities keep changing from time to time...and the time comes when we become our own priority :) now the time is yours...rock!
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